Waiting...

I don't enjoy waiting. I hate sitting at home, waiting, when I wish I was on the field. I could be giving orphans the love they need and giving them big hugs and encouraging the other missionaries. I sit at home and dream of what I could be doing in Kenya right now. The waiting game is the worst. I am very used to it. Waiting in emergency rooms, hospitals, and for healing for my mom. I know God has a plan. I know God has perfect timing. I just wish I could be used right now. But no one seems to want me to help. I'm too young. I dont have enough experience. How can I be ready to live in Kenya? Those are the questions and thoughts i think other people have. 1 Timothy 4:12 - "Don't let anyone look down on you because you are young, but set an example for the believers in speech, in life, in love, in faith and in purity." I guess all I can do is set an example and show that I can do this. I wish I was old enough for people to take me more seriously, but in the mean time I'll be waiting. I think cosmetology is what's next for me. It's something I seriously considered last year after high school. I'm good at it and it would give me a way to support myself before Kenya. So we'll see what comes of this. I'm very hopeful :)