The storms

I'm at a point in my life now where I am extremely thankful for the storms. The trials. The rough times. I would not be the same person without them. It's during these storms that I've "needed" God the most and turned to him. If my life was roses and daisies, I dont think I would feel the need as much to depend on the Lord for every aspect of my life. The storms suck. Let's be honest. It seems horrible to be in them. But I don't think we could learn the lessons we do without them. God has become my best friend, my favorite pen pal, my comforter, my provider, an ear to listen to my cries and pleas for the storms to end, my audience to belt out songs to and have Jesus music dance parties to :), my strength, my hope, my future. I cannot thank God enough for the storms. And while you're in the storms, the only thing you want is to be out of them. But in them is when I've done the most growing and learning.
I finally feel like I can see the end of the tunnel with my mom...my relationship with her and her health. I feel like soon this whole thing will be over. A healing is around the corner and I cannot wait to see God be the mighty healer and we will give him all the praise and glory. I see a little hope in building up my relationship with my mom that's been so strained from her sickness. I got the best text in the world from my mom today. It simply said, "I love the way you love Jesus." How encouraging is that. That my love for the Lord is apparent. And I know my love for him has grown because I've turned to him and seeked him when I felt everything else was falling apart. James 1:12 says, "God blesses those who patiently endure testing and temptation. Afterward they will receive the crown of life that God has promised to those who love him." I can't wait until the day when I can sing "Our God is greater, our God is stronger, God you are higher than any other. OUR GOD IS IS HEALER, AWESOME IN POWER," and know first hand that God is the ultimate healer. I have a hard time singing "our God is healer." I know that I know that I know that God heals, and Im just ready for him to heal my mom. I feel like it's time to have my mom back. For her to be able to go to church with us again. For her to be able to go watch Zach and Ky perform choir concerts. To be able to fly over to Africa to visit me. To come visit me and my family in the future. For her to feel like a mom again. To cook and clean and do all the boring things that moms do. I want her to be able to do them. I want to go shopping with her. I want to take a random road trip with her. I want to live life with her able to. And for so long that just hasn't happened. But my God is the same God that closed the mouths of lions, saved men from burning in a furnace, brought people back to life, opened the waters, died on a cross then 3 days later rose again and is now living! I have no doubts in Him.

Lord, I can't wait for what's ahead. You are so incredibly faithful and there is no doubt in my mind that you can heal. Thank you for the storms.